For intelligent people who contemplate suicide only, .... advice?

You only live once don't waste your time fretting on how bad it is or how ****** up things are, however bad your life is there is always someone out there with it 10 times worse, i have paranoia and i over think things alot and i have depression and anxiety, i try my best not to think too much or i end up writing things like you, it's pointless and a waste of effort really, its that kind of self depreciation that leads of suicide, i think suicide is a selfish waste of life, even though i don't believe in god i still think someone consciously made you and you came into this earth of their will, and even if it was a mistake you were raised and not tossed away obviously because you have an education whether that be from societies hand feeding you or the people that gave birth to you you have someone to thank for your exsistance however bleak and depressing you think it is. Fall in love, ****, Do drugs, Drink, Travel the world, Find beauty in something but for fucksake please enjoy life i really feel for you.